There is no home without you. I’ve come back to the house before, when you haven’t been here. It’s a house, not a home, and it transforms the minute you get back. Or before – before there was a you that became a part of us. I lived in other places, other houses. I got … Continue reading Home
Author: Courtney
My Best
I did my best until I couldn’t anymore and suddenly, one day, I stopped. I’m still recovering.I spent a lifetime at my best. Ceaselessly pushing, holding myself up. Everything at its peak. Running on all cylinders, all the time. Nothing less. I spent years on eggshells as I waited for my best to pay off. … Continue reading My Best
Michael Is Terrible At Delivering News – Part 1
A multi-post blog in which I detail the many, many times Michael has botched telling me important information. These will include, but not necessarily be limited to, The Time He Proposed, The Time He Decided To Tell Me He Wanted Kids, The Time He Called Me To Tell Me He Won Big At A Casino, … Continue reading Michael Is Terrible At Delivering News – Part 1
Gardening
When I feel myself dipping into an all-too-familiar rabbit hole of worry and focus on everything that is going wrong (that hole, with its darkness and dankness and suffocating closeness) I'm trying to recognize the good things more. I'm trying to step back - just a little - and remember everything that has gone right. I'm reliving … Continue reading Gardening
Girl
Hello to the little girl that was me years ago, before I got older, grew up, and did the things you're supposed to do. . Hello to that girl, who stayed with me, living quietly in my brain most times - but sometimes moving to my stomach: shaking, and trembling ("Oh, my nervous stomach," I … Continue reading Girl
Jeff! I Love That Guy!
My kids are weird. I mean, all kids are weird. But my twin boys are really weird sometimes (so is my daughter, but that's a subject for another day). Interacting with my sons is like finding out there's an entire conversation going on that I was completely unaware of (and sometimes that is literally what … Continue reading Jeff! I Love That Guy!
The Weight We Carry
Originally written in 2020 I took the kids to the park yesterday and was looking forward to just checking out on my phone while they played. And then, 10 minutes after arriving, I was spotted by someone I had worked with years ago. As it turns out, she lives not far from me, and had … Continue reading The Weight We Carry
The DFP
Six months into being married, I decided we should get another dog. Michael wasn't totally on board so I did what any rational person would do - I waited until he was gone one night and then started looking on Craigslist (why Craigslist, you ask? I don't know, it was 2009). Against all odds, I … Continue reading The DFP
The Great Recorder Incident of 2022
In what can only be described as an obvious and unmistakable act of war, Michael brought home a recorder and gave it to Rebecca this afternoon. The shrieks, squawks, and squeals started long before the recorder was actually out of its packaging. Our daughter, when excited, has the vocal capacity to imitate what I can … Continue reading The Great Recorder Incident of 2022
A Lunchtime Error
Originally written April 2020 Friends, let me take you on a journey with me. The journey of my lunch today. I’m considered an essential worker, although I work in an office. Despite technically being an essential worker, I have been mostly able to work remotely during this strange phenomenon known as a global pandemic. But … Continue reading A Lunchtime Error
Pocket Sized 