I don’t know if I believe in reincarnationbut in a way, I find it terrifying -in my darkest moments, with no comfort to be found in believing that, at least some day, all of this will end. Unlearned lessons cannot be left behind,when I shuffle off this mortal coil - no; they will be there, waiting, … Continue reading Whispers
Miscellaneous
Alchemy
I saw this quote by Sarah Durham Wilson a few days ago, and it’s been stuck in my head: “Theway you alchemize a soulless world into a sacred world is by treating everyone asif they are sacred, until the sacred in them remembers.” This idea speaks to me, for so many reasons. It’s the Golden … Continue reading Alchemy
Light Through the Cracks
As a perfectionist, I put a lot of pressure on myself. A completed project could always be done better, a piano piece practiced more, a meal better cooked. As someone who has lived with perfectionism for a lifetime, it goes without saying that I’ve always seen mistakes that I've made as bad – signs that … Continue reading Light Through the Cracks
My Best
I did my best until I couldn’t anymore and suddenly, one day, I stopped. I’m still recovering.I spent a lifetime at my best. Ceaselessly pushing, holding myself up. Everything at its peak. Running on all cylinders, all the time. Nothing less. I spent years on eggshells as I waited for my best to pay off. … Continue reading My Best
The Weight We Carry
Originally written in 2020 I took the kids to the park yesterday and was looking forward to just checking out on my phone while they played. And then, 10 minutes after arriving, I was spotted by someone I had worked with years ago. As it turns out, she lives not far from me, and had … Continue reading The Weight We Carry
The Best Gift for College
Below is a letter I wrote to my cousin's daughter to explain why I was not a totally out-of-touch nerd to give her a copy of Pride and Prejudice as a college going-away gift (even though, I really am a totally out-of-touch nerd). Dear Stacee, Before you roll your eyes and prepare a polite smile … Continue reading The Best Gift for College
Welcome to Pocket Sized
Hi...I'm Courtney. I have been writing for as long as I can remember. A lot of my writing has been lost over the years, but some stuff is still with me. I created this site as a place to house anything I've written that I like. Here you might find old college essays (proof I … Continue reading Welcome to Pocket Sized
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